Yesterday was the Scorpio New Moon Solar Eclipse, and boy was it an intense one. I was feeling this on every level — emotionally, energetically. It was like I was being cracked open. Somehow I knew it was good for me, but not the most comfortable.

I attended a mini Shamanic Journey to release what needed to go and it was a wonderful respite from the intensity. In this grounded space, I met up with my guide for the day, a Beaver Wizard. The Beaver had kept changing forms from a Beaver to an old man, to communicate to me that he is a Beaver WIZARD. Very important I have the Wizard part, apparently.

The Beaver Wizard led me through the forest to his dam, where the water was crisp and flowing. Sticks we expertly placed to allow this water to flow serenely.

By showing me this dam, the Beaver Wizard implanted an understanding within me. 

We think of dams as structures to disallow water from flowing — to hold it up, but that’s not what dams are for. Dams are built so that water can flow more serenely. Instead of turbulent, rushing water, dams regulate the water so that the water flows in a way where we can use it, access it without being swept under its current.

This was a very interesting analogy to emotions. For much of my life, I had dammed up my emotions. I kept it locked up for no one to see, including myself. But then there would be times of rage, just like raging water that can’t be controlled, it would be spilled out in a way that doesn’t serve me. I would lash out, instead of allowing emotions to be expressed with flow and equanimity.

I can see how my 3rd chakra, my solar plexus chakra is kinda like my dam. Our solar plexus chakra is the center of our personal power. On the one hand, this is the place that governs our defense mechanisms like boundaries which we need at healthy levels, but dialed up too high, we end up controlling everything, which doesn’t allow divine energy to move through us.

The Beaver Wizard showed me that my 3rd chakra is like a dam. From my heart, I feel love and joy, and from my 2nd chakra (our center of emotions), I feel grief and anger, and the 3rd processes all of this so that I may feel and express my emotions with equanimity, rather than holding it up, only to burst when I couldn’t take it anymore.

I’ve been on a relationship building mission with my 3rd chakra for a long time, and this has upgraded our friend status. Sometimes I can see my solar plexus chakra as an enemy (or frien-enemy). After all, this is where we control, or push it in order to keep doing, keep working, even when we’re tired. In many ways, we abuse our solar plexus chakras. 

But now I see that this dam is meant to help me. If my emotions are always flowing smoothly as a way for me to feel and express them, then there’s less chance of it flooding my whole system, which ends up flooding all houses and gardens around it, which ends up in a mess with a bunch of clean-up. Actively listening and expressing our emotions when it arises on a regular basis is way less messy!

⁠In gratitude, Bonnie
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